Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Days 24, 25, and 26

OH MY GOODNESS I CAN'T BELIEVE I MISSED TWO DAYS I WAS EVEN LOOKING AT IT TRYING TO THINK OF A RESPONSE FOR DAY 24 AND NOW IT'S THE 26TH AND I STILL HAVEN'T COME UP WITH ANYTHING AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


... but seriously. I have no idea. Day 24 - Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter) It's just not going to happen. I don't think in terms of music and can't figure out a single song that I would send to someone for any specific reason other than I think they would like it. At which point I may as well just say, "I'm sending Devon every ACDC song ever written," and leave it at that.

NEXT!!!!!!

Day 25 - The Reason You Believe You're Still Alive Today.

There are many. Because I keep breathing and eating and doing what I need to survive is the most practical one. Because God loves me is the next big one. Other than that... it's pretty much just a compilation of life in general. I haven't died, therefore I'm still alive.

NEXT!!!!!!

Day 26 - Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?

Yes. When I was depressed. Because I was depressed. It's one of those things that's hard to explain. When I was depressed, I felt things that made no sense, it was what they call an emotional roller coaster except imagine being on a roller coaster for years on end... it gets sickening... like... let's just jump out of the damn thing and get it over with. But even though I was having all these crazy emotions, I KNEW they were wrong that they didn't make sense. I've always been a very logical person. And I KNEW my parents loved me and I KNEW my family loved me and I KNEW that Devon loved me. Yet it didn't FEEL that way... why I still don't know. And some people who are very empathetic will say that they understand and to a certain point they do... but for the most part... there's no way they can understand unless they've been through depression themselves. It doesn't make sense. It just is. Blah... what a bad topic to go to bed to.





So... better topic... um... I finally caught up on my Mary Kay paperwork today and realized that even though I haven't really been trying I've sold over $1100 in product! Go me! Now I'm actually going to try lol

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